Monday, July 31, 2006

Things are Going My Way

So, on Saturday, I finally called Uncle Mike and asked him if I could say with him until I find a place of my own. He said he would be happy to help me out and I could stay as long as I needed to. I don’t know why I was so scared to call him, but now that it is done, I feel so much better. I just filled out my application for a passport, which I hope I can get up here. It will be so much easier to already have it and not have to worry about it.

Uncle Mike also said there are a lot of jobs in downtown LA and that business is booming there, so I shouldn’t have too much trouble finding a job. YEAH ! ! !

Anyway, life seems to be going really well right now, I hope it stays that way for a while.

Dad wants me to write a letter to Riley and Kyra before I go to the Temple and before I leave. I think this is a good idea, I just don’t know what to say to them. Dad thinks I need to apologize to them, but I’m not sure that is what they need to hear. I don’t want to imply any promises, because I want to keep them where they are. Riley will most likely understand this better than Kyra, because he hasn’t seen or heard from me since he was 3 years old; Kyra has. I know she wants promises and so does Ian, but I’m not willing to comply too his conditions.

Anyway, tonight, I’m going to see Dr. Tingle again, so I will discuss this with her and get her insight and help. I’m not sure how to put my true feeling into nice terms so it doesn’t to more demand than it already has.

Enough for now,

R

Friday, July 28, 2006

New Post for a New Year?

Good Morning,

Not really sure where this is going yet, but here goes .... I decided to start this journal, partly 'cause it's the only site my work hasn't blocked and it's easier here than anywhere else. We'll see if I keep it up better than my Paper Journal !!

I need a place to write all the crap in my head so I can think a little clearer and fit more crap in, I guess.

Today, I'm feeling ancy, I'm finally getting really excited to move to LA. I booked my flight with WestJet on Wednesday -- I leave on Saturday, October 28, 2006 at 11:10am and get there at 13:38 pm - who knew it was such a short flight. I still haven't called my Uncle Mike, who I want to stay with while I'm there or at least until I find a place on my own and get a job. The goal is to call him this weekend sometime - but I keep putting it off 'cause I'm scared. I haven't spoken to him since Mom died and that was about 17 years ago. What a crazy thought by it self, it feels like it wasn't that long ago.