So True ... Wow

"In your whole life, nobody has ever abused you more than you have abused yourself. And the limit of your self-abuse is exactly the limit of abuse that you will tolerate from someone else."

A New Year ...

Do you realize it's 2009? It's almost been 36 years since I was born! Where has ALL the time gone?

It's been a crazy year. I've learned a lot, cursed a lot, cried a lot, yelled a lot, smiled a lot and blogged a lot!

Life has almost come full circle here and now. KLR is finally moving out and Sarah is moving in at the end of the month. I couldn't be MORE excited! I feel like I've seen the best and worst of myself this year, some of it really bad and some of it really good! I hope for an even better year this time. I think 36 will be a good year! It started off really well. I went to a New Year's Eve Dance in Huntington Beach with friends and danced a lot and met new and old friends. I didn't make it home for Christmas like planned - just too expensive! I had a really nice day though, I spent it ALL BY MYSELF and Loved it!! Both Roommates were gone and I had the entire apartment to myself and with all the tension, it was really nice and quiet!

Let Me Sign - Bobby Long & Marcus Foster, Sung by Rob Pattison

She was standing there by the broken tree
Her hands were all twisted she was pointing at me
I was damned by the light coming out of her eyes
She spoke with a voice that disrupted the sky
She said ' Come on over to the bitter shade,
I will wrap you in my arms and you'll know you've been saved'
Let me sign, let me sign, can't fight the devil so just let me sign.

I was out for a drink in a soho bar
The air was smoked out liked a cheap cigar
She rose out of her seat like a painted ghost
She was the woman that I wanted the most
As she reached for my arm I gave her my hand
I said 'Lay me down easy let me understand'
Let me sign, let sign, can't fight the devil so just let me sign.

As I walked through the door she was still in my head
As I entered the room she was laid there in bed
She reached out for me all twisted in black
I was on my way down, never coming back
let me sign, let me sign, can't fight the devil so just let me sign.

Never Think - Sam Bradley & Rob Pattinson

So you come to me
For rest in my heart
Rest in my home
That’s all you want
I haven’t seen you lately
But you still call me baby
What about my name

So I come to you
For rest in your heart
Rest in your home
Its what you want
Well you learnt to hate me
But you still call me baby
I guess you forgot my name

Still I stand to save your soul
Yes I stand to save your soul
Before you're too far gone
Before nothing can be done

When I should have lied and
When I should have tried and
When I had no fight in me and
The whole world was screaming hold on
Screaming hold on

Girl you got it all so hold on
But you got it all so wrong